Mar 20 2013

Parenthood is crazy, y’all!

Published by at 12:45 pm under Updates

Photo via Flickr Creative Commons by frasercgraham

Photo via Flickr Creative Commons by frasercgraham

Since January, my little guy who never got antibiotic-sick during his first year, has been to the doctor three times.  He’s currently on his third round of antibiotics.

Having a sick kid is the worst and not for the reasons you might think.  It’s not the clinginess or the irritability or being snotted on or anything like that.  You WORRY…. about EVERYTHING.  You lie awake at night listening for coughs and cries.  As fatigue gnaws your sleepless brain, you start to imagine elaborate scenarios in which you fall asleep only to discover a cold baby in the morning like someone on the evening news– all because you fell asleep and missed a fatal cough.

Parenthood is crazy, y’all.

I think that even worse than the self fabricated night terrors is the guilt that comes with a sick baby.  What did I miss?  Should I be feeding him more kale or more vitamin C or something?  Sickness has a tendency to sneak up on Baby Boy.  Things go from a few moments of misplaced crankiness to– Shapow!  Fever and malaise out of nowhere!  You feel like you failed.  You failed to put the pieces together.  You failed to keep your baby from being sick.  You failed to realize they were getting sick.  You just feel like an all around failure, and feeling like you failed your child is a truly horrible feeling.

Like I said, parenthood is crazy, y’all.

K, the yin to my emotional yang, always tries to pull me back to rationality with logic, which helps.  When Baby Boy fell ill (and by ill, I mean an ear infection, so not anything too serious), I sat on the back patio and cried after I put him down for the night.   K talked me off the ledge.  Then I went for a run… which was not my brightest idea.  By the end of the night, though I still felt guilty, I felt a lot less like horrible mom and better prepared for my nighttime audio vigil.

Sing it with me, now.  Parenthood is crazy, y’all.

When I took Baby Boy to the doctor, I asked if there was anything we could do to help prevent ear infections– nutrition, habits, anything.  After yet ANOTHER lecture about eustachian tube anatomy– seriously, I got it the first time– I was informed that there was no ounce of prevention and only the pound of cure in the case of ear infections.  Blerg.  I don’t know if I believe that answer, but I fear we’ll be doomed to repeat this story again until my little guy grows out of this stage.  Poor monkey.

In the mean time, I’m stocking up on baby ibuprofen and wine and hoping for the best.  The wine is for me.  I’d hope that goes without saying.

Anyway, so, in conclusion– Parenthood is crazy, y’all.  Or maybe it just makes you crazy.  The jury’s still out…

5 responses so far

5 Responses to “Parenthood is crazy, y’all!”

  1. Jennyon 20 Mar 2013 at 1:33 pm

    I can relate to every word of this post. I hope little man feels better soon! Aubrey has an ear infection right now too. Love y’all!

  2. Chickieon 20 Mar 2013 at 2:09 pm

    Oh no! I hope she feels better! I am convinced that all the pollen in the air is somehow at the root of their infections. :(

  3. Ashleyon 20 Mar 2013 at 10:12 pm

    Those ear infections aren’t likely to go away until his face elongates and his eustachian tubes point more at an angle, and then he will look all grown up! I guess you take the good with the bad. Hope Little Man feels better soon!!

  4. Bhavon 20 Mar 2013 at 10:25 pm

    Ear infections are the worst! As you know, Shayan has tubes in his ears. Today we found out that he has an ear infection in his right ear and the tube fell out. We just hope he doesn’t need to have surgery again to replace the tube. He is almost 3 and still having issues with ear infections. Ugh!
    I hope the little man grows out of it real soon.
    Stay strong Chickie xxxxx

  5. Chickieon 21 Mar 2013 at 8:32 am

    Thanks, Ashley.

    Bhav, I saw where Shay had another infection. That poor little guy! He has had a hard time of it. Hopefully this infection will be the only one, and he won’t need a second set of tubes. I wish I could give you both a hug!

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